This is what Charlotte writes.

12.15.07

i hold my breath to keep from screaming
the air is cold,
so cold that one false move
will shatter it
i’m not worried because
i can’t move
the words “it’s alright”
echo hollowly around me
meaningless
in the dark i see shadows
shadows making moving pictures of your life
our life
your smile is warmer than the sun
and yet
it’s so cold
were i to breathe a cloud would form
a cloud whose tears would be betrayal
but i stay strong here
not breathing
not stirring
the dark is moving in
surrounding me
holding me
i can’t see you but that means you’re safe
it’s cold but i don’t shiver
it’s better this way
suffocating.